Its been over 2 years since we posted..... yesterday was 2 years since our maxi boy went to heaven to run to his hearts liking....
I had been thinking of restarting this for a long time now but I wanted to restart with a post about Max and I just could not get myself to do that till today.... even now, my hands are shaking but my eyes are not welling up. They are filled with happy memories of my first baby......
Its taken me 2 years to only be able to smile and laugh and reminisce about him without breaking down over him not being here with us to regale us all the time.... I absolutely miss everything about him - from the way he used to look every morning ( he used to wake up on the dot at 6 am, shake himself and wait for us to open the doors and let him out - the shake was out alarm.) to his head tilt ( he could spell 'walk' and if he heard us say anything about 'walk' or 'talk' or anything rhyming, his ears would perk up and he would do the head tilt to concentrate and figure out if we are indeed taking him for a walk!), the way he slowly and lavishly ate his food ( he used to be very particular and ate slowly whilst cocoa would be done in less than a minute!), the way he used to come and wipe his mouth on our clothes after having his milk ( we used to hate it then! ), the way he had a fixed bedtime and how he used to come and cozy up to us ( he never smelled like a dog - always, always smelled like a baby.... always.) ....... so so many memories.....
The important thing is that I can smile at them now and he will always make me happy whether is he here or not..... he always makes me smile now.... :-)
Leena
